If I was led by God to love God, step by step, as it seemed, if I accept that the beauty and the rapture were real and true, then the rest of it was God's will too and that is cause for bitterness
the sparrow who fell
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our group's blog: la corporacion
comments by: haloscan
"Matthew ten, verse twenty-nine," Vincenzo Giuliani said quietly. "'Not one sparrow can fall to the ground without your Father knowing it.'"
"But the sparrow still falls," Felipe said.
- The Sparrow by Maria Doria Russell
"Tis hard if all is false that I advance. A fool must now and then be right by chance."
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Life is card game. You have to play the hand that it has dealt you. You may not be able to choose the cards you have but you can always choose how you play it.
03-29-03
Intimacy without love is pleasure that dies after the throes of lust.
05-30-04
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Wednesday, December 29, 2004
sweet...
The sweetest things this Christmas Season
1. He patiently walks with you while you do your christmas shopping.
2. Not only does he walk with you but he also gives helpful advice about the type of gifts you are buying for your friends.
3. He takes your budget into consideration.
4. He saves you the hassle of asking for new stocks by asking for it himself
5. He absolutely won't let you carry a single shopping bag.
6. He says the cutest things over a hot cup of mocha.
7. He adamantly refuses to let you pay for your meals.
8. He pulls chairs for you.
9. He opens doors for you.
10.He accompanies you up to last minute you spend in the mall coz he doesn't want to leave you alone.
11. He gives you a shirt that is exactly your size.
12. He gift wrapped it himself which was obvious with the way it was wrapped.
13. He patiently waits for you and greets you with a smile even if you were 1 hour late.
14. Even if you are late, he makes sure you're settled and comfy in your seat while he goes to the counter and gives both of your orders.
15. He orders the drink that you wanted without you tellng him that. (mind you I pick my drink according to the weather and my mood and for him to guess that is quite a feat.
16. He knows you well enough to tell your friends about the latest updates in your life.
17. He supports you in everything but if he thinks it is bad for you he talks to you about it and respect whatever decision you may make.
9:35 AM
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Tuesday, December 21, 2004
The Economist...
Okay.. Just a short quip... taking up genders philosophy taught me one thing: I hate being called 'baby'. I hate the dependency that it implies.
Now here is something that just randomly popped into my head: variety exists in order for people to undergo the selection process. Sticking to one man defeats the whole purpose of the selection process. Going steady is not a guarantee of permanence but rather a short term lease of the human emotion. Better yet, going steady is like having a preference of one brand over the others in an imperfectly competitive market.
Why do people fall in love when it has high opportunity costs and minimal marginal returns? It is so baffling is isn't it? especially in the long run... However, maybe... just maybe.. people fall in love because it has a high IRR internal rate of return in the short run...
hehe la lang..
iba talaga pag-ekonomista...
5:14 AM
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Snoopy!
haha.. the title does not in any way tell you that this entry is for the snazzy party that I attended today which was held at Luigi's place at Dasmariñas Village. It does however tell you that I am a snoopy fan and because of that I am sooooooo envious of Aikee coz he got this cool Snoopy stuffed toy for Christmas. Kawaii desu ne! (the stuffed toy, i mean)So if anyone wants to give me gift for any occasion, I'd love to have a Snoopy stuff toy too. ¤Ü¤
I wasn't planning on going to Luigi's party but somehow I just got (willingly) dragged into it. Seeing people loosening up and starting to shrug off the restrictions imposed by the formalities of debate and the rules of the school is quite refreshing. Haha. I guess seeing people getting shifty during their time in the hot seat and in the heat of debating whether or not Armand will vomit before or after 2230 hrs is a balm to my tired self. I can't wait for the next get together. Haha. Let see who can fulfill the 'RPG' sidequest entitled 'vomit in Tim's corner' which will give you additional manner and matter points if you however vomit in the lover's pool then heck you suffer the consequences and get a minus in manner. hehe. fun. BTW, it's called tim's corner coz its where he made his debut vomit in the pHils. Oh yeah, feedback on mixing gin with mountain dew code red: EWWW... but joel said it isn't so. Go figure. He was the one who concocted it after all. Hehe... but victor expressed his dislike for the blend so joel feigned hurt because he is saying that insulting his mix is tantamount to saying that he's ugly. Cute comeback from 1/2 of CSB A. Now, I wonder what color will Armand paint Joel's car... puke red (from code red+gin)? puke orange(from royal+gin/rum or gin-orange)? or puke brown(from gin-iced tea or coke+rum)? I'll have to ask eric or joel during training tomorrow. hehe. Cross-training with the ateneans.. nyah-harhar... *bleah*
On another tack, Ice was put in the hot seat as we pestered him with the names involved with him. One big issue is with the airy fairy girl (who is the love interest of person one who accumulated a dangerous number of failed subjects.. got it?)and this particular girl from the blue yonder who has this big set of milkshakes which were put in display in one of her bikini pics that was shown somewhere in the net (i think). He was also put in the spot by his comment about wanting to run in UPD last week. The bad girl that I am chided him by saying that he just wanted to run in the Oblation run. hehe. The silly guy started kidding around and threatening to take his pants off (but of course he wouldn't) *sigh* it's just good ol' natured fun. Oh yeah one last thing about Ice. I relayed a story how he reprimanded me albeit in a very sweet manner in the Ateneo IVs about socializing while waiting for the adjudication. He told me that this time should be spent in analyzing the nitty-gritty of the debate and assesing whether we did good or bad. However, in the succeeding rounds I found him socializing with different girls. tsk. I got jealous back there. hehe. jk! Talk about going against his own preaching.
*sigh* to go to the worlds or not to go to the worlds... that is the question... which is more important? taking the opportunity to get that long overdue vacation or grabbing the opportunity to go the Worlds without spending more than USD550 for everything? I honestly don't know.
BTW, I forgot to mention this in my previous entries about the AIVs. Well, let me start from the beginning. Ria, wanting to get out of the issue with Praba (the malaysian guy who picks his nose during debates), she started her own issue with Eric. The bad girl that I am started teasing them while the three of us were on our way to the AIVs. Ebro got into it and suddenly declared Ria as his wife, I as his mistress number one and later Eve gets into the picture by getting declared as mistress number two. During the whole day, we were into this whole mistress thing with eric so much that when we were riding a jeepney home after several grueling rounds we ganged up on Eric not knowing that the girl sitting beside him was his crush a couple of terms ago. Hehe. He was sort of embarrased by the whole thing but being the nice guy that he is he actually didn't take it against us. Anyway, the point of the matter is that we are still his 'mistresses' and it was duly pointed out by several other members of the society that I am multi-timing eric. With that idea in mind let me post this
Unofficial list of men who are supposed to be in 'the list' according to the DLSU Debsoc grapevine
(a phrase full of redundancies but bear with me dears.)
1. Eric Ebro (of course! I am his number one mistress!)
2. Aikee (because he’s ‘my best friend’ according to Ria)
3. Ice (because gabby said so and victor thinks so)
4. Duffy (because he’s the history major who cops(?) out and works for a call center - totally irrelevant I assure you but heck)
5. Siong (from SME)
6. Luigi (and Mario!)
7. ‘That Atenean dude in the pic’ (My atenean boyfriend as Eric 'affectionately' calls him')
I am not denying the last one. Definitely not. The rest? haha. Its for me to know and for you to find out! Nyah-hahahaha!
1:34 AM
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Wednesday, December 15, 2004
what? my second entry for today?
Yes.. this is my second entry for today. I'm bored out of my skull by doing this brain busting math thingamambob over statistica and mathematica. I have been sitting here for four hours now trying to finish this lengthy project and I sure needed a break form this neuron frying work.
Eve and Ria got the support from their parents and yes, by Lord they are going to the Worlds which leaves me, Eric, Victor, and Ice without the economic capacity to support our wish. I am still praying to the kind Lord for the granting of our wish. *prays*
BTW, my dearest Boss take care of yourself, ayt? you've got to have enough energy to chide me for my unfinished work. Pumunta ka kaya sa M'sia pagkatapos mong maging representative ng DLSU dyan sa leader thingie na yan... The Malaysians will be 'treating' (meaning we get to lounge in this private resort, go bar hopping and etc.) us for our whole stay during the World's and after the tourney the Singaporeans are offering to accommodate us. It's your chance to get that passport filled with stamps.. hehehe... BTW, bibigyan pala tayo ni Dr. Q ng 60k at wala na rin tayong problema sa enrollment. Life seems happier don't you think/
3:51 PM
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is there anyone generous enough?
Okay... I NEED Php 30,000. Why? Because that's the amount of money I need to fund myself and get in the University of Kuala Lumpur Intervarsity Debate Championships and the World's - which will be hosted by Multimedia University in Malaysia. This is the last world's (during my entire college stay) that will be held in Asia. So practically this is the last chance I would probably have in entering the worlds. *sigh* I have posed a rhetorical question to my parents if they would be willing to fund me but they said no they wouldn't. They think it is the resposibility of the school to fund us. Go figure. We have been paying for our tourney fee for since Bombit Largoza and Praba were still the Team A of Lasalle ( AND THAT IS SAYING MUCH ABOUT THE SITUATION). Geez. I need someone who's willing to lend me some moolah until i can pay them off in Feb when I receive the commission I would get from solicitations. tsk. Life is shit. Worse comes to worse, only (my mommy) Nissy and Estelle would be going, lessening the chance of La Salle to break in the octo/quarterfinals. Lord... Ice, Victor, Ria, Eve and me are praying for a miracle to occur... I know its too much to ask but can you send a check that would fund us for the worlds.. *sigh* Wishful thinking... geez.. I should get my ass moving or I'll be late for my exam..
7:54 AM
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Sunday, December 12, 2004
ranting 'bout airy fairy artsy fartsy things
I am thanking the Lord our God that I am finally home after a grueling weekend. I am so freaking tired and I have 3 final exams and one finals project due tomorrow but what the heck. I need to rant and I will rant right now. However, before anything else let me put down a couple of definitions that I would use in this web blog entry. When i refer to ateneans in this particular entry I would be refering to the members of the Ateneo deBate sOciety. When I say airy fairy bitches I mean those bitches that have air bubbles in their heads. When I refer to artsy fartsy bitches I mean those bitches who consume cigarettes like smokestacks and drink more rounds of beers than they can handle and end up embarassing themselves in front of the foreign contingent. Any other term that I may use in the course of this entry which you think is highly offensive is MY OWN FREAKING OPINION...and oh please have the freaking decency to tell me you were offended so I could explain myself before you randomly piss off at my thoughts only find out your context was wrong.
First off, I hate having a loud mouthed artsy fartsy bitch beside me on my way to a well-deserved delicious meal at Fazoli's at Libis. Why? because I can't take her freaking presence that's why. Sounds unsubstantiated? I don't care.I just freaking don't like her and trying to explain why would take as long as trying to explain why Jess is bisexual.
Second, I hate the fact that I actually wasted my wardrobe on something that just gave me a break-even internal rate of return. I was looking forward for this event simply because of the fact I was expecting to see him during round breaks. However, as luck would have it, we weren't able to see each other because he freakingly went home friday evening. Tough luck.
I also despise the fact that there are people who exist who is bubble-headed enough to forget their way home. These people can actually waste time, money and patience. good grief!... *sigh* never mind...
I have encountered yet again the fish-net artsy fartsy bitch from the DLSU IVs. Let's just say I got my friggin revenge. Oh it was truly sweet! Though we had exacted our revenge and got ranked first in that round it didn't change the fact that we just had a slim chance of breaking since we had a zero in the second round... stupid motion for corporal punishment in schools.
I have spent no less than two thousand pesos in three days and I feel like an economist whose principles had ran amuck. Sheesh! Worse of it all, I have to look for a way to raise 60k for the World's this December 27- January 4 which is to be hosted by Multimedia University in Malaysia. Man! I would love to go to M'sia, shop 'til I drop and debate vague motion rounds with artsy fartsy debaters from other countries (with the hope that I would not be stuck in american rounds where debaters suck like hell not unless they came from the Ivy league and NYU)*sigh* but first I have to nail the money needed to fund myself and my partner. Oh where can I find that amount of cash in such a short span of time?!(because I am certain my parents won't blow off 60 grand just to let me compete in the Worlds)My money concerns doesn't end at the tight monetary policy imposed by my parents over my various extra-curricular activities. As if things weren't bad enough, I have to contend with the budget deficit in one of my orgs that ballooned due to a no-frills activity. No-frills my foot. It almost jeopardized my enrollment since there was a condition that the members of the org would not be able to enroll nor graduate if we don't pay our debt to the school since they plugged the budget hole in our activity. It was a good thing that our fearless leader thought of signing a promissory note that we would pay by feb 5 to remove this particular unnecessary condition.
that's its for now... i still have to freaking study for my exams... although, i feel too lazy to do so
5:26 PM
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Wednesday, December 01, 2004
bitching
I'm physically and mentally drained... exhausted... tired.. spent.. blown out... bushed... done in.. whacked out.. kaput.. I want to snooze the remaining days away but I can't for very obvious reasons. GEE-WHIZ. I'd have to admit that one of those reasons is that I still love what I'm doing despite of 'em all making my head swirl. Oh well, I guess one must really sacrifice something to attain what you want in life.
ITINERARY
WEDNESDAY
810-910 MATHAN2 quiz
920-1020 Watch 'A Few Good Men'
1020-1140 Start cleaning up the bat cave (Starting with organizing the file cabinet)
1140-1240 Make the AIDS poster for GENDERS
1250-1430 LSAL Women's Football Championship
1430-1530 Freshen up
1540-1600 Send all the invitations for the admin
1600-1800 Clean up the batcave/ Finish the paperwork
1800-2100 Training/ Pass the Approved Absence form for the IVs
THURSDAY
940-1110 Participate in a talk in Ariston Estrada
1120-1430 Class
1430-1800 Clean up the SC
1800-2100 Training
FRIDAY to SUNDAY: DLSU IVs. ¤Ü¤
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