If I was led by God to love God, step by step, as it seemed, if I accept that the beauty and the rapture were real and true, then the rest of it was God's will too and that is cause for bitterness
the sparrow who fell
Links
our group's blog: la corporacion
comments by: haloscan
"Matthew ten, verse twenty-nine," Vincenzo Giuliani said quietly. "'Not one sparrow can fall to the ground without your Father knowing it.'"
"But the sparrow still falls," Felipe said.
- The Sparrow by Maria Doria Russell
"Tis hard if all is false that I advance. A fool must now and then be right by chance."
|
|
| |
|
|
| |
Life is card game. You have to play the hand that it has dealt you. You may not be able to choose the cards you have but you can always choose how you play it.
03-29-03
Intimacy without love is pleasure that dies after the throes of lust.
05-30-04
|
|
|
|
|
|
| |
Thursday, April 29, 2004
can't sleep... feeling terribly under the weather
I just finished typing up a proposal for a project under my office in the BA. Its the usual VP Acad thing of putting up tutorials and stuff like that but let's not delve into that shall we?
Just this morning I had a nasty headache due to colds but that was not the reason why am I feeling down in the dumps, on the contrary I was quite perky this past few days despite the colds. This 'blue' feeling came crashing to me like a tidal wave when I saw our picture in my wallet while I was shelling out money for the bus fare home.
I told myself that I won't shed a tear and i didn't but I almost did... This particular emotion battled it out with my restraint and reason and failed to win (thank you Lord). Actually this entry should be in my other blog but let's just say that its not too much of a secret (or is it?) to be stored away in a hidden blog...
caramba! I need sleep! I can't afford to sleep on my accounting exam tomorrow... fiddlesticks and nutcrakers... i'm going bonkers...
--- hey that rhymed... cute... o well...
hitting the sack... erm... slowly falling asleep
12:49 AM
|
Thursday, April 22, 2004
I haven't told him... by now he should have guessed what happened... o well, got to go school to have a crack at those numbers... *sigh* this is going to be one of those days...
7:42 AM
|
Monday, April 19, 2004
freakingly freakish day
Okay so my last entry was overly sentimental... but I am not about to continue whatever I started last time but instead I would like to rant about the events that have transpired today.
Well, the main reason that I am so annoyed (so annoyed that my sister thinks I need loads of annoyntment =p) is that my grades are way down... somehow I managed to get myself kicked out of the DL and bungle whatever dreams I have of the future. Phooey! I finally got done in by my crap shit habit of procastination. Hoo-boy... Am I done for!! First off my parents will go ballistic when I tell them the news. Then, my relatives would be disappointed and worse of all, I let him down. God knows I should have squelched the notion that I am his perfect rachelle who can manage to get decent grades while being an active member of so-and-so org! Lord, how am I supposed to tell him!!!
10:32 PM
|
Saturday, April 10, 2004
Sentimiyento...
Minsan ang hirap ng nagmamahal. Pag ang minamahal mo kasi ay nababagabag ang puso, dahil karugtong mo ang kanyang puso ay nababagabag ka rin. Tulad na lamang noong nagkasakit siya. Hindi kami nakapagusap. Hindi niya sinabi sa akin agad na may sakit siya dahil alam niya na magaalaala ako. Pero dahil sa pamimilit ko ay sinabi niya sa akin. Tama nga siya... nagulantang ako pero kahit papaano ay napanatag ako dahil alam ko kung anong nangyayari sa kanya. Para nga kaming sabay nagkasakit eh. Paano pareho kamin hindi makakain at hindi listo ng ilang araw.
Hay... Pag-ibig... Sabi nga ni Balagtas, O pagibig.... pag ika'y nasok sa puso nino man hahamakin ang lahat masunod ka lamang. Tingnan mo naman kahit anong pigil mo kahit anong tanggi mo na mahal mo yung tao mamahalin at mamahalin mo siya. Maraming intelektwal ang ang nagsabi na ang pag-ibig ay isang desisyon. Ako'y sumasangayon ngunit ang desisyon na ito ay masusuway kung ang katawan at kaluluwa mismo ang sumasamo at naghahanap ng tugon mula sa taong paguukulan ng pag-sinta. Sino ba ang isip upang tanggihan ang hiling ng kanyang tagadala at kanyang kakambal?
Ayaw ko sanang mahalin siya ngunit makulit ang tadhana. Pinatotoo ang hiling ng kaibuturan ng aking puso at inilagay siya sa aking buhay. Magkasundo kami sa lahat ng bagay. Magkatuwang sa lahat ng kabiguan at kasawian. Magkahati sa lahat ng ngiti at ligaya. Sandigan namin ang isa't isa. Ang aming mga puso'y tumitibok sa iisang ritmo.
Nakatutuwa ang pagkakataon. Heto kaming dalawa, nagaakalang ang pag-ibig ay hindi makadudulog sa pintuan ng aming puso. Ngunit sa isang iglap kumatok ito ng sabay sa mga pusong nakatulog sa pagiintay. Ay! sadyang matamis ang pagiintay kung ang siyang dumating ay ang kalahati ng iyong kabuuan. Ang buo ay muling naging buo. Ang dalawang buo ay naging isa. Ito ay sa kontexto ng damdaming pinamanhid ng panahon at pinapait ng kasawian.
.... itutuloy
10:20 AM
|
Wednesday, April 07, 2004
*sigh* I really do like him...
Fallin' out, fallin' in
Nothing's sure in this world, no no
Breaking down, breaking in
Never knowin' what lies ahead
We can really never tell it all, no no
Say goodbye, say hello
To a lover or friend
Sometimes we never could understand
Why some things begin with just love
We can really never have it all, no no hoh hoh
REFRAIN
But, oh, can't you see
That no matter what happens, life goes on and on
And so, baby, just smile
'Cause I'm always around you
And I'll make you see how beautiful life is for you and me
CHORUS
Take a little time, baby
See the butterfly's colors
Listen to the birds that sent to sing for me and you
Can you feel me
This is such a wonderful place to be
Even if there is pain now
Everything will be alright
For as long as the world still turns, there will be night and day
Can you hear me
There's a rainbow always after the rain
Hoh hoh hoh hoh hoh
Hittin' high, hittin' low
Win or lose you should go, yeah yeah
Getting warm, getting cold
Weather can be so good or bad
But, baby, this is life, oh, don't get mad, no no no
REFRAIN
'Cause, oh, can't you see (can't you see)
That no matter what happens, life goes on and on
So, baby, please smile (just smile)
'Cause I'm always around you
And I'll make you see how beautiful life is for you and me
[Repeat CHORUS]
BRIDGE
Life's full of challenges, not all the time we get what we want
But don't despair my, dear (no no no)
You'll take each trial and you'll make it through the storm 'cause you're so
My faith in you is clear
So they say once again this world's beautiful
And let us celebrate life that's so beautiful, so beautiful
8:39 PM
|
Yech!
As of today I have two cancelled dates, tons of accounting homework, a bout of procastination, a pair of sleepy eyes and a rotten temper. I can do away with my temper and pull myself together so I could finish my homework and grab a couple of winks but I can't do anything about the circumstances that prevented us from seeing each other.
Double Yech!
I can't believe that I am allowing myself to be obssessed with elv. I also can't believe that I am actually getting convinced to go back to tapat because of the principles that he values so much.
....
...
..
.
I'll grab a couple of hours of sleep... Maybe after getting some rest life would seem so much better.
10:14 AM
|
Saturday, April 03, 2004
You should be dating a Pisces.
19 February - 20 March
Your mate is loving and caring, trusting and
hospitable, and romantic. Though he/she can be
self-pitying, temperamental or dependent, the
fishes are quite romantic in bed.
What Zodiac Sign Are You Attracted To?
brought to you by Quizilla
10:07 AM
|
|
|
| |
|
|
|
